Back in the Saddle
Dear Blog, Lets hug it out.
I have missed you desperately. You make me so happy, I promise. I was as upset by my absence just as much as you I'm sure. Anyways, Im so so sorry. Forgive me?
Thanks, now if you will allow me, I will catch you up.
At the end of January the show with my first ever set design went live and got swell reviews, I was pretty proud of all that I had learned and done. But I didn't get to bask in its glow for very long because I was designing for the very next show at the theater! And so I had to strike one set and build another in the same week. That was very intense work. I have never needed to make so many crucial decisions or develop as many creative solutions as I have in the past few weeks. With a tight budget, a small team and big dreams it was pretty much all-consuming. Oh yeah, and then I had to go to classes.
I will admit, however that the toughest and most exhausting aspect of my work this past month was the disrespect and negativity being passed around the team. I was appalled sometimes at the way criticism and communication was handled. Too many snide remarks slipped out and too many disrespectful assumptions made. My mother always taught me to "front load" as she calls it. It means to give all you got at the beginning to avoid scrambling and stress at the end. I have found that to be the best way to describe my communication style. I sincerely try to present positivity and gratitude before criticism or change. This has served me well so far, but I hit an unresponsive wall with this project. Apparently not all have learned that you catch more flies with honey as I have. I struggled to stay excited but my friends, family and build team kept me going. I am more stubborn than ever to fight with kindness.
And that is that. So you can see why when I found this image (on notetosarah.tumblr if you can believe it), I smiled and felt excited to take pride in my values and get back to blogging! Cause I really really missed you bloggy ole pal.
Love, your friend Sarah.